walao , now <14o6hours> everything in the house goes wrong ,
all blame mi ...

how i wish this trip to malaysia , i can go lost ...
without being found ...
nobody care for mi in the family ...
nobody knows ...
even if one day somethink bad happen to four of us ...
parents will onli think of the two bois ...
who say that parents onli can care for bois ...
dexter dunno how to be thankful for everthing he have ...

he onli know how to misbehave ...
and create problems for the older one ...
everything he does wrong , if my sis i not in then i get scolded ...
why must they so pian xin ...
what is the different between bois and gurls ??
bois
they sarks ...
dexter is not good in his studies ...
snowden is at least better then dexter ...
no matter how good you are , you will never be better then the boi in your house ...
no matter how clever you are , no matter how stupid your brother is ...
you can never take their place in your parents heart ...

mi and my sister , we are not stupid ...
my sis , she got 2nd in NA ...
i got 3rd in science , i know i'm stupud but at least i got top 5 in class for one subject ...

ok .. snowden is also clever maths he top the class ..
but dexter , he is not clever , he bullys , he gets all the attention ....
he does all the wrong things yet being loved ...

does it mean that the more bad things you do , you more people love you ??
in that case , from on i won't be the good gurl ...
if one day you see in tv not be cuz i'm a star ...
beucz i did someting , something bad ...
dun forget mi , the naughty gurl ... cuz be my brother dexter ...

why the bad stuff love mi so much that they stick to mi for all this 12 years??


1 more day , we will be going MALAYSIA !!!!
i can get out of this place