that jerk of mine, i miss you ~ he's disappearing

well, she made lot of sense.

he's disappearing.
i miss his existence!
the 4th time this happen.
what can i say?
i still miss him a lot, that's all.
i know many things had happen..
i know the feeling for the other one..
those couples in the clique, pure envy.
many things that wasn't said..
many things that wasn't did..
many things that wasn't show..
every of those not done, tears were shed.
those tears that were shed was not because i was hurt,
those were because i miss you.
for those time i remembered you, in the most painful way.
for the every first time you ask me for my hand.
the time your hand warmed mine.
for the time i miss you so badly.
for the time i cried for you.
those tears that drop for you.
the time when you left.
i feel so hopeless.
when i remembered i still love you.
i feel so helplessly in love with you.
yet i wasn't getting anything in return.
the way i needed you was, like nothing i felt before.
when i know the truth, that you were in love with another.
i feel so useless.
not able to the the one i love beside me.
i feel so empty, the emptiness not one to fill.
i may sound drama but, it's true.
there's nothing more i can do now.
well, i didn't regret any of the things.
better love and lost, than have nothing at all.
you were the one who made me fell in love with you.
for all the stupid things i did, those WERE PAIN stupid.
that's what i get for wishful thinking.
those thoughts-hardly deserves a death penalty.

the beautiful delusion of you.<3
i miss you, you know it right?