how i wish i can occupy myself. so i will not think so much. i am afraid. afraid of the past and afraid it will happen this time round. come to think of it, i can just cry. how weak can i be?! sometimes i just wish i could be stronger. not crying at every little thing. i am afraid he might leave. i know i should trust him more. but i cant stop being afraid. i know typing all this crap, really is crap to you. but the pain i felt and the sadness i went through. i cant forget how alone i was. and now that i dependent on you so much. i..i...i don't know what to think of now. and coming to think of it. i find you rather sweet. sending me to school, how can i doubt you? but then again how can i not?

i miss you.

Labels: i become so dependent of you ever since.